[08 May 2009|04:56pm] art has always been a part of me, but now i finally feel like an artist. 1 began/|\anew

[11 Jan 2009|01:32pm] no matter how mad you can be at someone, if you love them, you will be there when they need you. and that is what happened today. i surprised myself. and maybe that is what growing up is about: discovering that you have certain things in you, which you didn't always know were there. Things that bare close appearance to what you would see in your parents as a kid. anew

[08 Jan 2009|04:36pm] i remembered i have a livejournal and decided maybe i should post again. sitting here..figuring out what i should say. what is important? what would i want to share or for others to see? why would anyone want to read this. nothing seems important to write about now, even though so much of my life is changing. i am growing, i feel like everyday i am becoming more and more myself. it is such a good feeling. i feel like me. i am myself: improved. new and old at once. but still... what to write about? in a larger scale nothing is important to type to an annonymous audience. because everything which i charish is personal and moments are sacred. yet, i guess under that same logic..if nothing is important enough to stand out...than EVERYTHING is important in it's own way, isn't it? everything is valid if day to day living means anything to anyone. and that is quite a comforting thought. 2 began/|\anew

[28 Jun 2008|01:49am] when im 22 i'll have made it. these two years, im going to make something of myself. something i know i have in me. anew

[11 Jan 2008|02:27pm] in california, laying in bed, sunlight through the big dusty blinds. i dont know if ill get where im going, but im sure going to try. its a big more complicated if the destination is a state of mind. anew

[04 Sep 2007|06:33pm] a fine line between having everything come together and everything fall apart anew

[08 Aug 2007|09:09pm] its hard to be so passionate, to wear my emotions on my sleeve..to throw my heart into the world. it is vulnerable to every stomping foot. ive left myself open for too long, its as if my chest has been exposed, ribs separated, and the rhythmic beating of where i keep all my dreams, where i keep my soul, has been left to take every hit. hits and scrapes and bruises, and the pulling so strong it might rip apart. ive been up and down 10 times a day for the past week.. there is hope, then there is none. there is hope, then there is none. (repeat) each time i lose more strength to scrape myself up i barely have any left. this cant keep happening to me. ive barely been looking up at the sky. i barely feel adventurous. no art, no imagination. i dont feel myself at all. i want myself back...i need some tea, i need friends and family and to find all the reasons i am who i am and save myself. 2 began/|\anew

[08 Aug 2007|02:00pm] my phone haunts me anew

[08 Aug 2007|11:02am] i never thought id miss someone who i still talk to everyday. i never thought id be going to california. i never thought id be so confused and so mixed up. i never thought id have so many long, empty nights. 1 began/|\anew

[30 Jun 2007|03:54pm] a fine line between happiness and everything else 1 began/|\anew

[17 Jun 2007|08:41pm] 19 is nothing how i want. im mixed up. i wish i could still trust in what i used to. ive been wishing for a lot of things. anew

[31 May 2007|05:21pm] fresh air is doing me well anew

[15 May 2007|12:18pm] If You Don't Go You Don't See anew

[06 Apr 2007|01:15pm] i wanted to print in the darkroom tody but i couldnt bring myself into the darkness even if it is the best kind of darkness. i couldnt do it because today i need light and the warmth of the sun. i started thinking about how nice it would be to go to bed with sunset and wake at sunrise. how perfect and peaceful it would be to let your body work with nature. let your body be blanketed by darkness and live in the sunlight. i dont think i want to be a night owl anymore. 1 began/|\anew

[17 Mar 2007|06:32pm] "its okay, there's nothing wrong with love" 1 began/|\anew

[16 Mar 2007|05:00pm] 1 began/|\anew

[10 Mar 2007|02:37pm] anew

[27 Feb 2007|11:37pm] im about to drop out of school 4 began/|\anew

[21 Feb 2007|06:41pm] there is nothing i have that i dont want to share with that one person anew

[14 Feb 2007|07:27pm] anew

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